Story to tell....Veronique

A few days ago, I started writing about drama and ego, and their places in our day to day life. I really wanted to write about it but I was finding it hard to find the right words or the right view to approach it. All of a sudden, life happened, a few days ago. Ego and drama used to take a lot of place into my life in it's earlier stage. There was a good part of my life when I let my ego drive me, and created a whole lot of drama in my life and thoughts. It affected the way I approach life, relationships, work and more. One day, my soul and body decided that it was time to let go of it. The only way this was going to ever happen, because trust me I was doing everything to ignore the signs, was for me to hit a wall. That wall was a hard and brutal one. Throwing me on my back and really not allowing me to get up and keep going like I had been doing for the greatest part of my life. It was time to figure myself out and time to get better understanding of life and my purpose in...

It's the International Women's day. As a society and as women, we've come a long way. We've got our place in society as business women, as professionals, as executives and CEO's of those large corporation. I have been reading for the past two years, on and off, the book Lean In by Sheryl Sandberg, this Executive for Facebook. One of the passage that stroke me the most is when she describes how though it can be for a woman, to be who she truly wants to be in this society. Despite all the progress that we've made. Progress in education, in legal rights, in politics. More often than not, I think we are our biggest critics. When I say we, I am talking about women. Weather it's your family, friends or colleagues, I feel there is always someone to judge your decisions. Personally, thus far in my life, I've chosen to take the "career path". I've worked hard to get myself through University, through a male dominated environment in the transport...

I remember sitting in the waiting room, with my mother in law next to me, holding my hand. I thought to myself: "This is probably the lowest point in my life! I have decided to try to talk to someone, seek therapy from a psychotherapist. What is wrong with me??" That's the mindset I had back then. I was supposed to be strong, I had always excelled at everything that I had done, and there I was, unable to do the simplest smallest thing ever, not able to sleep, sitting there with my mother in law in the waiting room of a therapist! (no offence Lucie ;)). I got in the room, she told me, my therapist: "I know you won't be believe me yet and probably not for a while, but you'll get out of this "dark hole" you are into, and we'll do it together!" I was totally suspicious, having always thought that this was stupid - seeing a therapist- and no idea how it could help. There's one thing that I knew though, I was in pain, I was struggling...

Last day of the year. How did it go by so quickly? I'm sure there's a lot of people wondering the same thing as me. I was asking myself; Did I fully take advantage of it and what good things have I done or happened to me. I find it's always a challenge to me, to judge my last year from the things I've accomlished and achieve, so perhaps I'll take a different angle for 2015 and judge it based on the way I want to feel and live my life like. Family; It is never easy, to maintain those relationships the way you'd like them to be. Sometimes because of expectations of others, the way everyone decides to live their own life, and depending of the place they are at in their own journey. I want to live my life with my family based on love, communication and non-judgment of them. I think I have improved on most of those aspects but I feel I could still improve on the non-judgment. It's not that I don't respect them or want to make myself feel more valu...

It's was just before going to church. It was snowing, maybe, can't really recall. The car was running. Everyone was in the car. It was warm and cozy. Well, almost everyone. Dad was still inside. Running behind as usual, making us wait.  He finally came out the door, almost running. He got in the car, his big glasses full of fog. He had that moustache and he was running his fingers on it, making it nice. I can't really remember how old I was, but I remember thinking; I think he just ate the cookies!!! Yes, the cookies we had left on the dinner table, for Santa to enjoy, while he delivered us our gifts. I remember not being upset, or surprised really and not mentioning a thing to my parents or my little sister. It did not really matter I suppose, because what mattered was that it was Christmas Eve, and we were all going to church together and it really felt like Christmas.  It had me thinking, these last few days, about what the holidays meant to me when I was you...

Kill the lights…. That's what they were trying to do. It is what happened to those folks. Yes the ones. They were trying kill the lights of humanity. The ones that accomplished and did those gestures and actions that are so cruel and took away so many innocent lives. Innocent lives. Innocents people. Innocents mothers. Innocents fathers. Innocents Brothers. Innocents Sisters. Innocents habitants of this beautiful planet. Nothing can bring them back. Nothing can change what happened. All we have, is what is next and how we choose to move forward. The human beings that decided that this was their purpose, their mandate to accomplish, their lights were gone. They did not see any other avenues, they had been influenced so much, that they felt that it was their duty to accomplish. What can bring a human being to that point? What type of world are those human beings living into, that it would bring them to do such terrible actions. I can't explain it. I can't make ...

Maybe it's just me. Maybe I've just lost my patience. Maybe I need to be more considerate of others. Lately however, I feel society in general is hurting. Maybe it's living in a big city, and people not having any more patience with all the construction and detours. Always being latd at work because you didn't know they were going to block that road today, or delays were caused by some changes or road blockage. I am spending a lot of time on the road and I find people are such in a hurry. Always wanting to find a way to go before you, cut the line or else. While, we are all of us, stuck in the same mess. We don't have control over those situation, and it's part of the world we live in. And BTW, it's not going to get any better. I know it can be aggravating. I know it can be frustrating. I think we just need to understand, that everybody is in the same boat as us, and we haven't chosen to be in that specific situation. It's a question of consi...