For all survivor woman and man; Be good, be you, be strong! Always!

 There are moments in life, that will define you for the rest of your life.

Moments you've been preparing for without event knowing about it.

My first moment, was when I was 3 years of age, a beautiful little blond brunette, with hazenut eyes, my hair about shoulder lenght and a nice square bang like it was proper in the day.

I remember a picture of me, when I was about 3.5 years old, with my orange headphones on my ears and my yellow-orange walkman in my hands, in my I believe if I remember correctly, by brown jump suit.

I was smiling so much, because I think it was the first time I was listening to my own choice of music. Since that day, music has become my refuge.

From my first guitar, given to me by my aunt when I was 13 years old, to the jazz ensemble I was part of in highschool. Music was were I felt I belond, and where I had a place.

I was rejected in junior high by my friends, when other kids from another school merged with us. I was the black swan, the A+ grade student, who struggled madly to learn english! (Look at me now Ah!! LOL).

I was rejected by my friends in highschool in the middle of the cafeteria, for being TOO much of MYSELF. Outch! That hurts!

From then on, I built on an armour that could overcome a tornado, a tsunami, anything that would come my way.

That armor worked until I was about 28 years old. Working then for a large Atlantic Canada Trucking Company, I took a promotion at the same time keeping my old job for about 6 months.

We made so many interviews to find the right candidate for the job, I thought we would never find someone. I didn't care that the person had A+ grade, because when I entered university, the first thing that happened to me was that I failed classes. And trust me, I FAILED them SOOOO BAD! I think I redid half of my classes during the summer, because I was bright and smart, but I hadn't learned how to study when I was in Highscool, because I didn't need to.

My brain has a very active pre frontal cortex, which is greatly useful when you need to accomplish a lot of tasks in a small amount of time.

This is what I did the summer and fall of 2013. I did two jobs at once, I took additionnal responsabilities my boss gave me had the time because his place was also over flowing. The owners wanted to grow radidly and failing was an option but it had to happened fast and you needed a damn good examplation for it and you were certainly get a GRILLING from the big boss if you had to put your knee down.

See, he had to suffer through the same thing with his father, and he didn't how else to manage his teams and group companies. He was a fair man, and trusted the people in front of him that made good decision. However, EVERY decision had to go in front of him, over a certain amount of dollars, which slowed down the decision making process.

Now, back to my first burn out in 2013. When my boss had a heart attack, I was left filling for him, finding a new person for my old job, train that new person, do my job of Sourcing Manager at the time. Instore new driver fueling processes, get yelled out on the phone by the drivers because the dispatchers didn't want to deal with the consequences of the company having roll the program out too quickly and by just sending a letter in the mail, instead of doing a real roll out with a Leading Change process.

I had told the executive at the time, if we didn't follow the proper process, the chance of success was about null and the compliance level about 10%.

Well, (3) months in, and me exhausted trying to coach every single driver that came through my phone line, coach my new hire who was doing well but was overwhelmed like me.

At the same time selling my house with my husband and being president of the local association of the Association of Professional Engineers and Geoscientists New Brunswick, and being part of the organizing comittee of the first edition of the Soap Box Derby.

End of September 2013 came, I survived it all, but one night to the next, I couldn't sleep anymore. My every active brain was so used to being in overdrive, it's like it got caught in 6th gear and didn't know how to find the clutch anymore.

I had burned out the clutch and the stick shift was stuck in used transmission gear and the piston were about to seize.

From one nite to the next, I couldn't sleep anymore. We tried all kinds of things.

For 3.5 months, I didn't sleep, I lost about 25 lbs and for people that know me, I don't have 25lbs to loose. I didn't know how to cook myself a meal, I basically lost all bearing of my intellectual.

I made it through, thankfully to a good familly friend Rose-Marie, who introduced my to Monique Gallie, a psychotherapist, that has been following me since.

Both of them literally saved my life. My body would have let go if it wasn't of them.

I remember the first thing that Monique told me when I walked into her office on rue Olivier. ''I know you won't believe me now, but trust me, we will get you out of your shit and you will live happilly again!''

I then melted down into her arms and we started the work of a long journey that is still on going today.

Two additional burn out to my tickets, one of 5 months in November 2019. The last one start on November 2021 and lasted until February 2023. 16 MONTHS!

16 MONTHS were I was outside of my own body, barely being able to get the dog out for a walk, to cook myself an egg without having a melt down.

Comes to find out, the doctors who were helping me, with my over active pre fontal cortex, were prescribing me antipsychotic that was speeding up my brain, so putting it even more in overdrive.

I couldn't access my intellect that is very high in QI. My ex boss, Chantal, calls me Einstein. She is looking for a new nickname for me, since now that I feel better, I started playing and composing music again and I can now play the drums, like a machine, like I have always wanted to.

I train as a boxer, and I think my coach Sylvain is going to want me to register for a Amateur card sometime this summer. My last drive at golf, in a happy gilmore swing for fun, was 155 yards. I like to fly fish, I like to write, read, jam with my friends, cook amazing food for my friends and neigboors and family.

I now like more than ever, the time for myself, to dream, and contemplate on the journey I have been on and the learnings that I have made along the way.

I was born from (2) blue colors parents, who gave me everything they needed, depiste the small fortune they had. They give me all the love they had and more and handed me when I needed a guardian, to people who care and still care deeply about me.

They think they were protecting me, but reality is, I knew very young how to protect myself.

I had to protect myself May 17, 2023 when I was attending a conference for work.

I will spare to you the details, but this man, tried to grab me (4) times too many and because everyone was intoxicated, I had to take care of it myself, once again.

A man of 6 foot tall at least, and 175-180 lbs, that I lifted with my right arm, the 4th time he touched me inappropriately. He pied in his pants and security picked him up and threw him out of the hotel.

This wednesday, I made my video report for sexual assault to the Shaumburg, Illinois pollice. They have been more than kind to me, and this gentleman, who thought I was the prey, will learn once and for all, that we are not prays.

We are woman of caracter, woman of business, woman with power that we don't abuse and that we use for the greater good.

Truly twisted for Charity

Will be to support women, homeless folks, people with brain issues, health issues of all races, colours and stigmas!

Be strong!

It's all coming back to us know! BABE, BABE, BABE, BABE, said Celine Dion!!!!

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See next musical event:

Since our last music event didn't come through as planned. We are planning a live stream event with friends from the music industry. Local, accross the country and perhaps the united states if the event can't work out.

Please help share the love with your family and friends.

If I have the time, it will be in collaboration with musiciens I have encountered musicians from all over places over the last few weeks and we will do a live stream event in collaboration with Long & McQuade on Pie-9!

Stay tuned for line up of artist. It will blow your mind away and bring you right into your week end.

If you live close by, you will be invited to the live event. Please include your comments in your ticket purchase. Taxe Receipts to follow.

All that for the good cause of Chez Doris & Cap St-Barnabé.

https://www.eventbrite.ca/e/fund-raiser-for-chez-doris-cap-st-barnabe-concert-veronique-hache-friends-tickets-663784385967