Story to tell....Veronique

"You are a good person!" she told me today. This was my therapist at the end of our session together telling me that I was a good person. For some reason, it made me think all day, about what is a good person and how do you become or live your life as a good person. During our conversations together, she often referred to it. That I was a good person, that everything about me is true, that this is how I live my life. At least my new life. Not that I am not still part of the person that I used to be before, but I was not always true to myself before, not always making the decision based on what my life was telling me, but perhaps what I thought was the easiest road or the easiest choice. Most of the time not for myself, but to please others, or to be present for others. Also, those choices were often dictated by my fears. My fears of leaving my parents when I was younger, my fears of being rejected by others or my fear of not being enough.  When I think about it, I thi...

I've wrapped up my trip across our beautiful country of Canada this past Friday, September 13, 2013. A lot of people would say it is probably a bad day to end a trip on, but the theories of bad luck surrounding that day doesn't bother me at all. I almost see it like a challenge. This trip has been a way for me to trace a line between a journey and a new adventure. Like most of you know, I lost my job with my previous employer about (2) months ago. I would understand that some people might see that type of experience as a failure, have feeling of rejections, thinking that you haven't done enough or perhaps your employer or boss or colleagues don't like you anymore. A friend and mentor of mine told me after the event had taken place, that perhaps, people that don't perform as well or are too comfortable will most likely never get fired or laid off. Perhaps because they are showing signs of loyalty, but maybe sometimes because they are not pushing the envelope enough...

It has been a few days since I have written anything, and perhaps it was all for the best, to give me time to test out a few things and to really see what the world and people are really about. Tonight I want to talk about meeting people. Because along this journey I have been meeting people. Not sure if it is because I am this lady travelling alone and people take pity on me, but I have meet the nicest people so far, minus one weird guy, who really should rethink his strategy when he wants to meet some women.  I think this is why we have the greatest country in the world. All started in Vancouver, when I was waiting on the patio line for the beach terrase at the Cactus Club Cafe. This fellow who was originally from Ireland, started talking to me, just out of pure kindness. Offered to take a picture of me, while him and his family were waiting for their table as well. He and them thought it was pretty cool that I was travelling by myself.  The next morning I was ...

Tonight is the first night of my trip where I am on my own. As I was siting down for supper, enjoying  the great food and view, I was trying to figure out the emotions that I was feeling at the time. I find sometimes, it is really hard to figure out what your body really feels, really needs or what it is really going after. I was observing the crowd around me at the restaurant, and I could see I was probably the only person sitting alone. Not that it bothered me one bit, but it got me thinking of what is life really all about. Personally, I strive on meeting people, talking with them, exchanding ideas, knowledge, etc. I used to talk to people just to talk to them, but I have seen myself lately, choosing not to say anything, unless I really wanted to. I feel that I am looking for more than just a simple conversation about the weather, I am looking for something meaningfull, a connection. So as I was making my observations, I could see that some of the folks that were...

Saturday August 24; One month and one day after I have lost my position, as I sit here tonight, less than a week before I leave on my trip, I am at peace with myself. I am at peace with what has brought my way, the challenges, the people and most of all, the gifts. The gift of time, the gift of learning and the gift of all those people that I got to exchange with. Passion, intelligence and knowledge all those people have brought into my life. Not because I was looking for it, but because I open myself up to them. I appreciate all that life has given me in the last year, and I am trying to get the most out of everything. Make sure that my brain and my soul knows that this is about myself, in this moment in time. I have the right opportunity to make the choices that will affect the rest of myself and that will shape me to because the women and I have to be. Dream to the maximum, take advantage of every situation, nevertheless how simple they seam to be. Breath in and breath out, open...

As I start to do my final preparation for my trip, some are still concerned and worried about the whole experience.  Although I have explain quite a bit, not everyone sees the real purpose of the trip I am about to undertake. I have been explaining that I need time for myself. It can probably sound selfish to a lot of people, or that perhaps I am running away from things, responsibilities, problems.  I found this quote online that I think can explain this best.    “Not all those who wander are lost.” ~J.R.R. Tolkien Yes I need this journey or time away from expectations, people, to find myself. Not that I am lost. I was lost last winter for 3-4 months, not really knowing who I was anymore. But the fact is, I did not know who I was before I reached that point. The best way I can describe it, and I have talked about this in great details with my therapist, is that I am finally aware. Before the my life changing experience of last winter, I was living my ...

That's it! It is booked! My flight to Vancouver leaves on August 29th. I am really excited for this journey. I understand that some people have some reservations as to why I need to go away, why so far and why so long. To be honest, I haven't come up with all the reasons yet, I don't really think that I need to. I just know that at this moment in time and in my life, it is the right thing to do. It is the thing that will enable me to decide what I want for the next few years of my life and help me clear my thoughts as to all the things that have happened over the last 10 months. Craziness is the word that I have been using to describe the events of the last few months. It was like raising from the ashes, not knowing myself before and being born again, as a new and better person. I know some people of my entourage are still trying to figure if that person is really good or bad, and it brings a lot of frustration from them. I understand it is difficult, because for myself...