Evolving Time, Changing Life, Channeling Energies....


When you feel low, when you feel blue, when you think that nothing will ever work out, there is always hope.

I have been to a place, where I thought I would never see the light again. I was praying that someone or something would take care of it, so I wouldn’t have to deal with it. Pain I was feeling, to some degree that I had never experienced before. 

I was able to go through this hard journey and make it out in better shape. And yet today, life is showing signs that things are changing and that the world is evolving. 

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Life is throwing me another curve ball, 9 months after I have crashed and burned. This journey that began last October, has now taken another turn on the road ahead. 

Even if my eyes were wide opened, I never really saw this one coming. I was ready to accept anything, having already made peace with all of it. I knew that this journey was going to come to an end, little did I know it wasn’t going to be on my own terms. 

Are you sending me one more test, was I thinking? Didn’t you think I was already strong enough, didn’t you think that I had learned enough? Karma or life, was sending me some other signs. Like a big billboard all lit up, I was trying to read the sign. The message seamed to be bold and clear, but I was wondering if I was reading it like it was supposed to be.

I know I have to remain myself, to be who I truly want to be. What makes me successful, is opening myself up to people, not because I have to, but because I want to. The adventures of the last few months, have been quite rewarding in that fashion, meeting extraordinary people along the way. 

I can think of Eve, Derek and Derrick, Rick, Marcia, to only name a few. Some people entered my life, so I could help them along their way, to help them see that the life they had in front of them, would welcome them in any fashion they needed to be. I was able to teach them, that things happened for a reason, and that when they would finally be able to accept it, life would open up itself to them, just like it did to me.

I come across people on a daily basis, and I now welcome them with open arms and I try most of the time, without judgement. I still catch myself sometimes, placing the wrong  judgement on people, not allowing them to be who they really are, not allowing myself to  see what they really have to offer me. 

Even people that come across like they are on a mission to destroy or to hurt someone else, also have a lesson they can teach you. You can always find a perspective on things, that can explain why they would do certain things to you. I have friends that have burnt me, not because they wanted to hurt me, but because I was on their path, the day when they were hurting the most and by being the close friend that I am, I got caught in the crossfire. Their issues were not about me, even if they were attacking me. Their issues were deep down in their soul and heart. I was put in their path to let them release those negative emotions, because I have the ability to let it go and understand that they were just not at a right place in that moment. And that really, at that point and time in life, I was their only alternative. I am not trying to apologize for all the bad things people do to one another, but I can certainly see that pain can make people do a lot of things. 

As I sit here tonight, exactly 9 months after, I wonder about my life, and where it is taking me right now. Like Monique would say, your vibrations are “ALIGNING” themselves! To that I would say; Frigging Right lol. 

Things are evolving and changing, but with each thing and each new day, I come to realize how much potential life has in for me. Those new friendships that I have developed over the last few months or years, I am cherishing like there is no tomorrow. The knowledge, kindness and perspective that all those friends are brining into my life is certainly the greatest gift in the world. They are allowing me to grow on a daily basis as a friend, a sister, as a lover, spouse and a mother. I know things won’t come without hard work, and none the less without PATIENCE. This word, patience, has certainly been the challenge of my life. I am working at it every day a little more, being tested by some of those new friend of mine, but I will always hate being patient. I will certainly get used to exercising it more, but I will never enjoy it. 

I was also lucky to met someone very special, someone that I think I knew in a previous life, through another form. I believe at some point in life, our time was cut short and we were able to find ourselves again and connect on a level that is just surreal and crazy like she would say. I am truly blessed and happy that we were able to connect on that night in Ottawa. It is like the big sister that I have never had, and I feel this is the beginning of a very long relationship that time will not be able to break this time, nor will anything else. 


I have also been thought a great lesson last week. My assertiveness, energy, passion and impatience are my greatest assets. It allows me to get things done in a timely fashion. However, in excess they will burn me every single time.  My friend than told me,  instead of trying to win people over with those qualities, you need to do the reverse. Take a step back, don’t always be the first person to talk or the one that has all the answers all the time. Learn to listen more and win people over with your intelligence instead of your assertiveness and power. I thought this was pretty good advise. I think I have found a great mentor in this fellow that I admire the most out of.


So as I sit here tonight, I understand that I have a lot of work left in front of me, and the only way I will figure out what I want from life, is by allowing people in my world and letting them understand why I am doing thing, and how I see them. Try to get them to understand things with the same clarity that I have found, the same awareness level that I have been able master. Because this has been the greatest challenge with the “new” me, trying to get people to understand the WHY. Because people often get scared of changing environment, changing people, etc. CHANGE is a scary thing for most people, unless they are already aware that things always happen for a reason. This is why I think my greatest learning will be to demonstrate the patience to teach people and get them on board with my vision of things. Perhaps not to change them, but to make them understand the WHY. Making them feel comfortable around me, willing to open up to me and have them understand that my energy and passion is always used to do good things and that I always have people best interest in mind. 

I am also sure of one things, some major changes in my life are happening, but I have to take the time to understand them myself, and take the time to make the right choices about life, work, etc. Certainly some people might get hurt in the process, because they won’t all understand right away, but as long as I don’t give up trying to explain to them, I think there is always hope. I know that the future will be bright, and that things will align where they are supposed to align.

Life has sent me a BIG gift when I was out sick last winter, and I will always be grateful for all the signs it is sending me. And I make the promise that I will always try to learn from those signs and listen to them as much as possible. 




Véronique Haché
July 31, 2013

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