The leap of faith

Trust your instincts, trust what your gut is telling you. Why are you holding back? Come on, you can do it! Take the leap and step into the arena.

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Have you reached that point in your life, where you feel like you are stuck? Stuck in a ruth. You are longing for something. You are waiting for something to happen. You wait days, months and all of a sudden you realize that you've been waiting for way to long for that something to happen.

Once in a while I reach that point and it gets me mad. Mad at myself because of all my procrastination. Mad at myself for not acknowledging that life is passing by, and I am missing those opportunities.

I am a passionate individual. For those who know me, I never do things half way. I commit, I grind it out, it's the pedal to the metal. If I want something, I go for it. I don't wait for it.

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I've been thinking for a while, of taking on a new project, in order to pursue my true calling and passion. I had started to look into it, and all of sudden, what I had planned out, didn't manifest itself, because of variables that I had no control over.

Instead of looking for another way, I've stopped trying, I've stopped pursuing. It's been weeks since I've even looked into it.

Why is it? It's definitely not like me.

Perhaps this is because it would mean real change. If I pursue this project, I know deep down inside me that it's going to lead me to a new path and down to my next journey. A path where I will have to step into the arena, and be vulnerable and there for the world to see me for the real me (Ok! Maybe the world might be dramatizing a little haha).

You know what? It's scary as shit. Scary because the little girl inside me is still looking for recognition, and truly doesn't know yet her own worth. I mean, I've made tremendous progress, and I feel more than ever that I know the real me. However, my own self acceptance is still what I struggle the most with. Loving myself for all my strengths and success but also despite of the mistakes I make.

This journey is one of self discovery and acceptance but also of forgiveness. I know that the journey to come will help me to accept myself and love myself even more.

It sounds selfish maybe, but I do thing if we can be loving and compassionate with ourselves, that it will have the most amazing impact on the people we share relationships with.

It's time, to take that leap of faith.





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