Story to tell....Veronique

Last day of the year. How did it go by so quickly? I'm sure there's a lot of people wondering the same thing as me. I was asking myself; Did I fully take advantage of it and what good things have I done or happened to me. I find it's always a challenge to me, to judge my last year from the things I've accomlished and achieve, so perhaps I'll take a different angle for 2015 and judge it based on the way I want to feel and live my life like. Family; It is never easy, to maintain those relationships the way you'd like them to be. Sometimes because of expectations of others, the way everyone decides to live their own life, and depending of the place they are at in their own journey. I want to live my life with my family based on love, communication and non-judgment of them. I think I have improved on most of those aspects but I feel I could still improve on the non-judgment. It's not that I don't respect them or want to make myself feel more valu...

It's was just before going to church. It was snowing, maybe, can't really recall. The car was running. Everyone was in the car. It was warm and cozy. Well, almost everyone. Dad was still inside. Running behind as usual, making us wait.  He finally came out the door, almost running. He got in the car, his big glasses full of fog. He had that moustache and he was running his fingers on it, making it nice. I can't really remember how old I was, but I remember thinking; I think he just ate the cookies!!! Yes, the cookies we had left on the dinner table, for Santa to enjoy, while he delivered us our gifts. I remember not being upset, or surprised really and not mentioning a thing to my parents or my little sister. It did not really matter I suppose, because what mattered was that it was Christmas Eve, and we were all going to church together and it really felt like Christmas.  It had me thinking, these last few days, about what the holidays meant to me when I was you...

Kill the lights…. That's what they were trying to do. It is what happened to those folks. Yes the ones. They were trying kill the lights of humanity. The ones that accomplished and did those gestures and actions that are so cruel and took away so many innocent lives. Innocent lives. Innocents people. Innocents mothers. Innocents fathers. Innocents Brothers. Innocents Sisters. Innocents habitants of this beautiful planet. Nothing can bring them back. Nothing can change what happened. All we have, is what is next and how we choose to move forward. The human beings that decided that this was their purpose, their mandate to accomplish, their lights were gone. They did not see any other avenues, they had been influenced so much, that they felt that it was their duty to accomplish. What can bring a human being to that point? What type of world are those human beings living into, that it would bring them to do such terrible actions. I can't explain it. I can't make ...

Maybe it's just me. Maybe I've just lost my patience. Maybe I need to be more considerate of others. Lately however, I feel society in general is hurting. Maybe it's living in a big city, and people not having any more patience with all the construction and detours. Always being latd at work because you didn't know they were going to block that road today, or delays were caused by some changes or road blockage. I am spending a lot of time on the road and I find people are such in a hurry. Always wanting to find a way to go before you, cut the line or else. While, we are all of us, stuck in the same mess. We don't have control over those situation, and it's part of the world we live in. And BTW, it's not going to get any better. I know it can be aggravating. I know it can be frustrating. I think we just need to understand, that everybody is in the same boat as us, and we haven't chosen to be in that specific situation. It's a question of consi...

A few years ago, I had asked by past manager, from a few years ago, a recommendation for a job. I had worked for him at the beginning of my career, just barely out of university. While I worked for him, he had been a great mentor in his way, even though he wasn't always appreciated by everyone. He had given me the opportunity, without telling me, to grow within my position and giving me the liberty to take on responsibilities, even if they weren't officially part of my job description. When I received his letter of recommendation, I was surprised by the words he used in there. I was rather a leader than a follower. I was surprised by his choice of words, because for the three years I had worked for him, and the 5 years that followed within the same company, he never verbalized those feelings to me. I was grateful for the recommendation, and thanked him very much for it. I never put more thoughts into it, other than the fact I was very happy that he had those feelings about ...

I wasn't present when I was first born, but I was truly present for my second try at life. It will shock you, I can assure you of that. You can you be on hearth without being there, without appreciating and being conscious of the  experiences you are living. You can go on for 28 years of your life and suddenly wake up and realized that you've missed so much, that you've passed on many experiences because you always thought of the worst. You kinda of wonder, how can people live like this, how do they not see the beauty and the opportunities laying in front of them.  You then take a moment and realize that it was you, not so long ago, and that you remember that you really had no idea yourself that you were hiding behind this big tall wall of fear and pre conceived ideas that were engrained into your brain as a  young child or even genetics. I guess we all go through this at some point in our life, we get absorbed by society, we find ourselves pacing through li...

Standing up for what you believe in. Speaking up for the people that aren't able to do so because they fear the consequences. Choosing to help a friend, despite the fact you know they will feel ashamed of it, because they will think they failed. All acts of courage. Act of kindness. So hard to decide to do so, and not go hide in the corner. Under the table. Put our head in the sand. At first it's scary, because you are afraid of what other people will think. Afraid to rock the boat, make everyone in the room uncomfortable because you decided to speak the truth. You don't do it for fame or exposure. You do it because it is the right thing to do and the truth deserves to be heard, despite all the stigmas and judgement that goes with it. You need to make a conscious decision of removing all the shields and armours and tap into your vulnerability. Being a woman in a male dominated environment, I often find myself in situations where the conversation sometimes evolve...

I feel great. I truly do. I feel so energized and excited about life that it seems like there's not enough time in a day to do everything I'd like to do. Every time you feel like you are in the zone, you always have that thought in the back of your head. Life cannot be just that great, sometimes needs to happen and ruin all of it.  However, this time I feel like it is going to be different. I've kept progressing in the last year and I'm becoming more aware of my own feelings, emotions and state of mind. It will sound funny when I say this, but I think I'm in a place in my soul where I've become calm and levelled. (I know, funny coming from an energetic person like me ;)) When I say calm and levelled, and I am talking from an emotional stand point.  Imagine that you've been learning how to surf all your life, trying to catch that wave and surfing it out. Because I can see life being like an ocean with waves. It will send you for a tumble sometimes...

They are periods in our life, when we sometimes loose ourselves, and aren't quite sure if we embarked on the right path, if our choices have been the right one. We then struggle to move forward and can't understand why we are down again, how could we have sent ourselves into this spinning wheel of thoughts and insecurities. Then, all of sudden, something or someone, helps you take perspective on life, and your situation and from that moment you are born again. Rebirth. I think we do that quite often in our life, sometimes unconsciously. When we are stuck, not knowing which way to go, we often look at other in comparison to ourselves. Perhaps I am not good enough, I wish I was as good as this as this person. We judge ourselves so hard, having very high expectations for ourselves and putting so much pressure to achieve, to be someone, to do something big. I've realized lately, than instead of comparing myself to others, and wanting to be them so bad that perhaps I s...