2017; The year of learnings

As a year come to an end we all have a tendency to look back on what the past year has brought us and make an assessment of the quality of the year we’ve had.

Some of us will judge the past year based on the personal accomplishments we’ve made, by the milestone that we’ve reached, the successes we’ve had at work or with our families. We often are looking for a measure. A measure that is based on what society has been dedicating us through social measurements and gauges.
If we take that yard stick and we measure ourselves and the past year to what society has shown us to be great and successful, maybe we are missing out on something. We are missing out on what our true value is as an human being, missing out on what our accomplishments really mean to us. Aren’t we meant to always be disappointment if we only count on those social barometers to decide if it’s been a year worth living? Worth the question I think :)

Here are some of my reflections of the past year;
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If I personally look back at my past year, it would certainly not measure up to what those social barometers are. I’ve found myself in a personal situation that has brought me a great degree of grief and shame. It was a situation that was caused only by myself and was certainly one of the hardest I’ve put my ego through. The situation yes did kind of resolve itself but I still am dealing today with the aftermath and I will be reminded of it for next few years to come. I am learning through this experience, to be kinder with myself and to really trust my intuition when it speaks to me. Yes it was a mistake, and some judgment would come with it if broadcasted in public, but the thing is, I’ve made it through and I’ve gained greater respect for myself and the learning's of this experience are not only benefiting me but the people around me. An experience that I would never like to repeat but that was meant to be in order for me to grow as a human being.

I also experienced something that I would have initially qualified as a "failure", when I applied for a new job within my existing company. It was for a position that for the first time in a long while, really made me excited about the opportunity and the kind of work I was going to have to do. When I first thought of applying for the role, there was this moment of doubt, that perhaps if I applied for it and wouldn't be chosen for the role, that it would be very disappointing. It was fear speaking to me, fear of rejections, fear of judgment and certainly a few more. I decided to push forward and jump into the arena. If I wanted to progress and get more opportunities, I had to step into the arena, despite the fact of what the outcome could be. I did it, with all the passion I have and also went through the process by being true to myself. I was not going to "give them" the answers that they wanted to hear, I was going to tell them what I truly believe what was required of the position, in order to change the culture and move us into the right direction. I felt amazing after the interview process and I go excited even more for the opportunity and was really thinking I had a great chance at getting the job. This made it so crushing when I got the call and was told that someone else had been chosen. It was truly heartbreaking because I wanted it so bad and the role really spoke to my soul. I made it even more difficult because the reason I was given just didn't make sense to me. For a moment I regretted having put myself out there, and started to go through the 'what if' and analyzing everything. I was really hurt yes, and it really sucked. However, it reminded me of my real passion to help and coach people, and it solidify my desire to do more for people around me. Perhaps I shouldn't have got too excited about the opportunity, but it would not have been who I truly am. If I go after something, I will go into it with all my soul. When I go after things this way, good things usually come out of it and it is how I show the best side of myself. So yes it hurt, and it took a little moment for me to come back up, but I didn't hide in that process. I allowed myself to feel the pain of the disappointment and learned so many things along the way. Don't be afraid to put yourself out there, because if you don't, you are probably missing out on some fabulous opportunities, even if it means falling a few time along the way.

Throughout the year, I’ve also been able to grow personal relationships with amazing people. Some of those friends that I’ve known for a while and where vulnerability allowed us to have some special moments, where we have reached a level of soulfulness and spirit that we hadn’t been able to reach before. It’s pretty amazing when someone that you’ve known for a while shows you a little bit more of their soul, because they trust you. We all have a tendency to be in the day to day, and go through the motions, which makes those truthful moments even more amazing. I am very thankful for them and all of you. Our journeys are intertwined and we help each other along the way, which is really what great friendships are all about.
New friends and new relationships have also created themselves, with people that even though you’ve known them for a very short amount of time, I’ve brought renewed energy into my life and some new perspectives and experiences. If you open your soul and seize the opportunity when they manifest themselves, amazing people will come along the way, just when you need them. You can measure the number of friends that you have, if you follow the social barometers, but maybe you are missing out on the real connections if you are only counting numbers of friends you have. Look for real vibration and energy, and you'll have amazing people in your life.
Family has always been probably my biggest challenge when it comes to personal growth and relationship. I’ve come to realize that it’s hard for me to open up and be vulnerable with my family and to really show them acceptance and practice compassion with them. We all have work to do when it comes to our family relationships. We often get caught in the drama and forget that we all have our journey, our background and our path moving forward. If a member of your family is not exactly where you are on their journey, you have to accept it and not try to fix it for them. We all learn different things at different time, and it’s perfectly okay. I have learned to be a little more patient, and listen more, and hopeful that it will only get better with time.
My hubby has also thought me a lot this past year or so, by taking the plunge and leaving behind a successful engineering career to chase the dream of his life. By taking a dip into the unknown, his shown even more of his true self to me and our entourage. It’s refreshing to watch him go and really vibrate to what his true passion is, without any expectations from anyone, because this time around, he is really doing it for himself. I am pretty proud of the safe growth & support environment we’ve built for ourselves. An environment where we can trust one another and were dialogue is occurring without any judgment and giving each other the liberty to chase our dreams and passions. and where we really get excited about each others successes.  
All those growth and learning opportunities are my ha-ha moments of the year. It has nothing to do with how much money we make,  or how many promotions or trips we’ve taken this year but it has everything to do with challenging myself as an individual and really doing retrospect on how far I’ve come as an individual. It thought me every day to get a greater appreciation and love for myself and the life I’ve built. The great moments with friends, the amazing experience but really being in the present moment, and not missing out on the subtilitties that life has to offer.

I wish you all an amazing 2018, seize the opportunities, look for the right energies and souls, you'll an amazing year if you do.

With lots of love,

Véro xxx
 

 

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